You have Bad Person Disease.
Oh, what does that mean? Well basically. You’re Bad. And you can’t be Good, because if you ever try to be Good then you’re only doing it to hurt people, because you’re Bad.
If you ever try to seek help through therapy then you’ll have to wade through therapists who believe Bad Person Disease makes you dangerous to everyone around you. Yes even if you’ve never actually hurt anyone, or you respond to stress by isolating or hurting yourself. Actually if you hurt yourself it’s just to manipulate others. Because you’re Bad.
Also any time you try to seek help online you’ll find people discussing specifically how to upset you, including to the point of ruining your life. But it’s okay, you have Bad Person Disease, so acting maliciously or cruelly towards you is justified.
These kinds of disease are all on complicated spectrums and different people will experience wildly different symptoms or express things in wildly different ways. Not Bad Person Disease though. Yeah, you’re all the same. All Bad, you see.
If someone else takes personality traits from other people then it’s just a normal impact of socialisation on human development. Not you though, if you take any personality traits from the people around you then you’re doing it on purpose and it’s bad, because you’re Bad.
If someone else has a meltdown, screams or yells or snaps, it’s probably just that they’re having a rough day and need some help. Not you though, if you ever do anything that upsets anyone then it’s because you’re Bad and always will be Bad and that makes you dangerous.
I don’t know how to end this post.