had a little sad moment today, because me and my mom got to talking about my recently departed grandma.
my mom was saying that my gran had felt ‘threatened’ by me, and that’s why she was always a little mean…..and I didn’t want to tell her that no, some people pick up on my autism and feel instinctively repulsed. more so when I was younger, with worse social skills and less ability to mask, but it really is like an odour that some people wrinkle their noses at. many of my family members value social status and conformity, which leads to revulsion when they encounter someone who can’t fit in.
anyway, I couldn’t think of a nice way of saying “grandma wasn’t threatened, she just found me icky” so I just nodded and moved the conversation along.