dude if EVEN BILL is scared and feels that “it was a mistake” and “pain that wasn’t hilarious” you know it’s unbelievably bad and alarming. what fiddleford did to himself to forget is beyong everything and the fact that even in this condition he’s able to live and partly sane is wild
he lived like that for decades and even got better when his mind was fucked up so much that bill goddamn cipher was afraid to be there. fiddleford is so strong ohmyfuckinggod
