it really isn’t acknowledged enough how mentally draining it is to consistently fuck up the same thing over and over again. The kind of thing that make people ask “how could you possibly fuck that up again, you’ve been doing that consistently for the past 10 years” and all you can give for an answer is “if I knew how I manage to keep doing this wrong, I would simply stop doing it wrong.” And they don’t like that answer, either.
Your brain isn’t designed to do that. The hunter-gatherer survival instincts that are pretty good at determining what’s sensible and what isn’t will just go “don’t do that, then.” There’s nothing in the natural environment that human beings developed in in which consistently doing something that you find unpleasant that consistently yields no reward would be worth doing. If you keep failing at the same thing again and again, then clearly the thing cannot be done, and wasting your energy doing something impossible to achieve that isn’t enjoyable to do is detrimental to your survival. Your brain punishes you for trying to do that.
And there is no way to explain to my caveman brain that I cannot simply stop doing laundry.