alright, making a second post just because of how wretched the experience of me trying to find a job has been
it has been close to a year since i was fired from my previous job, and i haven’t been able to find work since so i have been living off my savings for that long.
Despite that i have been doing my best to actually enjoy what i can in life, even if that has meant making financial decisions that realistically would’t be the best at the moment.
My visit to my girlfriend helped the building stress that i have had since then but unfortunately it has returned with seeing just how hard it is to get a job. It would’ve been nice i didn’t have to exchange that joy for shortening how long i can still say i have money
I know my savings won’t last forever, and especially since there is a planned *move* over to her some time in the near future. I would prefer to have the option to go without too much hassle or burdening those who i am living with with too many of the things i can’t bring. That’s just assuming my savings will even last long enough for it to stay a real consideration instead of it turning back into something that was once impossibly far away.
I hate how the more time goes by it starts feeling more and more impossible for me to be back safely. I know it’s safer for me there and it just highlighted how alone i feel here, but i am holding n with everything i have until i am back in her arms again and to stay
I don’t regret my actions up to now, but i think that it would be preferred if i could be able to more comfortably say i can at least get to somewhere i want to be instead of this growing hellscape that was both through other’s actions and my own.
I know that the money could go to better places than me, and likewise i hate asking to begin with, but here’s a ko-fi link: https://ko-fi.com/a_sentient_cup