I think it’s possible to play a tabletop character who truly sucks as a person and that it’s possible to play a tabletop character who’s very aloof but it’s extremely hard to successfully play both of those in the same character. a character who’s a total bastard and ALSO pushes people away gives everyone else both very little to work with and also very little reason to want to. if you’re committed to playing an asswipe in a collaborative game they need to be a little bit hopelessly codependent, be it on the party or on elements of the plot. they need to have some ‘the gang from always sunny’ energy to them. you need to be prepared to get kind of crony with it. to swallow ur dignity a bit.