aita for not wanting to sacrifice myself to save the universe?
so, ok, its a whole situation but ill try to explain it. so i (21F, orchal) was born with these weird telekinesis powers BUT i was also the first orchal born on cantow so my parents (54F, orchal, 52F, orchal) thought it was just a side effect from the planets spores. anyways, so after the fall of illium and the assasination of asu-shu-namir my friend (20M, orchal) and i were forced to try to leave to pluto because were both trans and my friend was also a vigilante for asu-shu-namir so hes probably in line to get executed, so we stole a ship from the Tallarico family (and picked up one of their bodyguards (24F, human) that wanted to leave). we didnt make it to pluto but we did go to andromeda so thats nice (we also picked up an engineer (14MX, tsa'akak) from tsak). so anyway we did some stuff around andromeda for a few years, a lot happened that isnt really important here BUT after a while i found out through a thing haunting a friend we met on the way (???, concept and 8.14B M, t'eclean respectively) that im supposed to like. take over and be the god of reality and thats why i was born with weird powers. and everyones already resigned themselves to the fact that im gonna have to take on this great task (im not dying but its basically like dying cause ill be asleep for trillions of years) but i REALLY DO NOT WANT TO DO IT. ive been trying to work out a way to avoid this responsibility but i havent found anything yet. i know that if i dont theyll have to condemn someone else and if it takes too long reality could begin to crumble but i cant leave my friends. ive worked so hard for the life i have now i cant just give it all up. i know i wont die but this choice doesnt feel any different from just sacrificing myself. im scared, and i know i have to, and i dont want to, and im ready to do ANYTHING to avoid this responsibility, even let reality itself die. so, aita?