December 2023

left-reminders:

excalibelle:

me watching monsters inc as a kid: how did it take so long for anyone to figure out that human child laughter not only produced energy like screams, but was more effective, and that children aren’t actually dangerous at all?

me watching monsters inc now: monsters incorporated, a multi-billion dollar corporate giant, stood to make extra profits off a scream shortage because low supply with high demand makes it possible to charge a fortune for a necessary commodity and everyone has no choice but to pay the high prices because they can’t go without electricity. Therefore Monsters Inc, as well as any other major powers that may have existed at the start of the era of using scream energy, fabricated the idea that only screams could generate sustainable energy sources in order to create artificial scarcity, because laugh energy was far easier to obtain and far more efficient, and therefore stood to lower the value of energy due to surplus. They also fabricated the idea that human children were toxic, in order to a) make other monsters too afraid to go near them to do research and possibly discover the secret of laugh energy, and b) to make monsters so afraid of going near them that there is a shortage of scarers, making it harder for rival companies to rise up and create competition. Even in the monster world, capitalism is based on lies, greed and cruelty, and even monster companies have no qualms about using and abusing children to maximize profits.

miradademujer-deactivated202402:

by Comicname

👍

somethingmissingthiswaycomes:

fieldbears:

lastoneout:

bubblegum-sullivan-13:

nayters:

I also like it when they’re like hey what’s up or something personal/natural instead of the welcome to wherever how can I serve you bit.

I also like it when they are sitting down or listening to music they clearly enjoy

There is something so nourishing about walking into a place of business and immediately thinking “huh, I wouldn’t have guessed this place would be playing this kind of music” only to see an employee absolutely head-banging along because today is their day to pick the CD and they are living

Despite what capitalists might think, I do not want to roleplay being royalty in the presence of slaves when I seek professional assistance in obtaining my basic human needs.

majorpepperidge:

maskysgirlfriend:

maskysgirlfriend:

maskysgirlfriend:

yall gotta be nicer about m/f  bc sometimes u guys like the blandest gay sutff ive ever seen in my life

gonna add onto this you all gotta stop acting like m/f is just cishet when bisexual people exist and straight trans people exist.

last add on alot of m/f ships of poc or white/poc ship are constantly downplayed for bland white m/m or f/f ships

#also sometimes u guys r just fuckig misogynist. abt the women in m/f ships. sorry

Testing tumblr’s new and terrible“hide note” feature

a-rock-nothing-else:

lukadjo:

desktopatomicclocks:

lukadjo:

trips-reciclados:

bogleech:

Reblog or reply to this post asking me to “hide” it, and I’ll see if it works. According to staff, it should make that note “hidden” for everybody on tumblr.

SOME of the notes hidden so far (there’s a constant stream so I can’t keep up for long!)

Replies are simply “deleted.”

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AND WORKS ON REBLOGS where it is called “HIDE NOTE”:

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Now that I’ve “hidden” these, you can only see them on their own blogs here, here, here  here, and here. Even these five users won’t see their own post when they open the notes.

Yikes?

This might be good for people getting harassment on their own posts, but the potential for malicious disinformation is pretty frightening. Remember when suggestions to mix deadly chemicals went viral? Remember how you could just open up the notes on them and see all the “DON’T DO THIS YOU WILL LITERALLY DIE” responses?

Yeah, now the OP of such a post can hide every one of those from anyone who runs across it on their dash, and keep hiding new ones if they’ve really got that much malice.

….This means that us users now have to depend more on the staff alone (oh GOD) to step in and remove harmful hoax or prank posts.

THERE ALSO DOES NOT YET APPEAR TO BE ANY UNDO OR RESTORE FUNCTION

Final update:

One or two notes re-appeared on their own, likely a glitch, and some people are saying they don’t have this functionality on their blogs yet.

I’m all deleted-out now, sorry!

Wow, this is some bullshit. 

hide this!

my good sir this was 2016

what, how was I so foolish to not see that.

my dear moot this feature isn’t a thing anymore how did you not realize

But it is? I get a “hide note” in the right-click submenu?

That’s when I Google searched it and found this post.

sourcreammachine:

hentairobot:

dalmek:

cannibalcaprine-deactivated2024:

yamada-ryo:

Thank you, wikipedia

i need people to know that the anime girl is a proposed Wikipedia mascot named Wikipe-Tan

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thank you beast….

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bitesdigitalcircus:

fishy-sandwich:

CAINE NATION!!!!!!!

poetrylesbian:

if you’ve never wished bad things on another person honestly you need to get out more and meet more people

bixels:

bixels:

In the middle of a strike.

If you need context, earlier this year, CorridorDigital put out an “AI-made anime,” where an AI filter was used to convert live action footage into “animation” (for the record, this is NOT animation. Animation is not a look, it’s a process. By this logic, anyone using that Pixar Snapchat face filter is a Pixar animator). They touted themselves as “revolutionizing animation.”

They were met with considerable backlash and criticism from the animation community. For one, they were taking frames from the real anime Vampire Hunter D to feed the AI. For another, the video was essentially a proof-of-concept for how “easy” and “inexpensive” it is to reduce animation to an automate-able process.

Well, Corridor did not learn anything, because they released a sequel… In the middle of a strike against the use of AI to replace/exploit/profit off of the labor of workers in the film industry. Corridor assured they hired their own artist to train the AI, but remember that industry discourse like this is interconnected. They may not be stealing art, but any studio that sees this and goes ‘wow, it’s that easy’ will. Corridor’s also boasting about AI democratizing animation-making. Now anyone can make animation in their bedroom with nothing but a camera and a free software! Except, anyone could already make animation in their bedroom with nothing but a camera and a free software. I made animation in my bedroom with nothing but a camera and a free stop-motion software when I was 10 years old.

Anyways, work like this is exactly what studios hellbent on exploiting workers want to see. It doesn’t matter if it’s cool or fun. Remember that AI discourse is currently the frontlines of the labor crisis in the film industry. Corridor putting out this video as “fun education” in the middle of an strike is so incredibly irresponsible and disrespectful.

gay-deer-babe:

danlsnotonfire:

pizzaback:

wannabeanimator:

DreamWorks’ Shrek was first released on May 18th, 2001.

The song “All Star” by Smash Mouth, heard in the opening credits, was only placed in the film for test audiences until a new song could be found. But test audiences loved it, and the producers kept it in. When the producers decided to keep “All Star” they decided to let the band sing the last song in the movie, “I’m a Believer.” (x)

Happy birthday you big stupid ugly ogre

THE SONG WAS AN ACCIDENT ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME

oblivious-chaos:

loustatdivorce:

loustatdivorce:

manifesting

The flight test was the first for Starship mounted atop the company’s new Super Heavy rocket, and the first launch ever for that lower-stage booster, which SpaceX has touted as the most powerful launch vehicle on Earth.

Even though the two-stage rocket ship made it less than halfway to the edge of space, climbing to just under 25 miles (40 km), the flight achieved a primary objective of getting the new vehicle off the ground at liftoff despite some of its engines failing.

While SpaceX officials were heartened by the outcome, the mission fell short of reaching several objectives.

The plan was for Starship to soar into space at least 90 some miles (150 km) above Earth before it would re-enter the atmosphere and plunge into the Pacific near Hawaii.

But SpaceX said in a statement afterward that the spacecraft “experienced multiple engines out” during its ascent, then “lost altitude and began to tumble,” before the “flight termination system was commanded on both the booster and the ship.”

The two-stage rocket ship, standing taller than the Statue of Liberty at 394 feet (120 meters), blasted off from the company’s Starbase spaceport on the southern tip of Texas along the Gulf Coast east of Brownsville. SpaceX hoped, at best, to pull off a 90-minute debut flight into space but just shy of Earth orbit.

A live SpaceX webcast showed the rocket ship rising from the launch tower into the morning sky as the Super Heavy’s Raptor engines roared to life in a ball of flame and billowing clouds of exhaust and water vapor.

But less than four minutes into the flight, the upper-stage Starship failed to separate as designed from the lower-stage Super Heavy, and the combined vehicle was seen tumbling end over end before blowing apart.

The pad and surrounding area were cordoned off well in advance of the test, SpaceX said. Any debris from the explosion should have landed over the water in areas placed off-limits by the U.S. Coast Guard.

hihereami:

hihereami:

milei is gonna instaurate by decrete that national lands can be bought by foreign enterprises 👍👍👍👍 if anyone doubted his goverment is modern-day US imperialism in power!!!! if anyone doubted argentina and latam are modern day colonies!!!!👍👍 he’s selling NATIONAL LANDS so ANYONE FROM A FOREIGN COUNTRY OR ENTERPRISE CAN BUY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! 👍👍👍👍 say goodbye to argentina’s sovereignity 👍👍his rise to power was funded by blackrock and the heritage foundation if anyone cares

THIS IS ANTI-CONSTITUTIONAL IF ANYONE CARES!!! YOU CANNOT DEROGATE A LAW LIKE THE LAW OF LANDS BY DECRETE!!!!! HE’S STEPPING OVER ALL THE POWERS

effemimaniac:

itwashotwestayedinthewater:

effemimaniac:

effemimaniac:

effemimaniac:

ARGENTINA

this is from one of the worst guides to slur reclamation I’ve seen but gay argentina really blindsided me why can the terminally online gayboys not settle on a flag for their digital separatist micronations

ID: screenshot of a reply from fruity-bats: 
put Brazil somewhere up there [brazillian flag emoji three times in a row] /end IDALT

@fruity-bats BRASIL NÚMERO 1 CAMPEÃO PENTA ☝🏻🥇🏆🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷

TRANSSEXOOOOOOOOOOOO

ghiacomo:

dani-r:

We are living a fascist government. There is not nuance on that. It’s in plain sight, is concrete and direct in the very first weeks of it.

This is being played today, on train stations near and inside Buenos Aires. A message from the Ministry of Security, that it feels that is taken out of the most insidious dystopia-like sci-fi novel ever written.

In a quick translation:
“The Ministry of Security informs: if you are going to exercise your right to protest, take into account that you can only do it in authorized places. Remember that blocking a street, avenue or road is a crime punishable by law. If you are extorted to attend a demonstration, remember that you can report it anonymously by calling 134. The Ministry of Human Capital informs that if you are a beneficiary of a social plan, no one can force you to block roads. If you comply with the law, you will keep your benefit. If you do not comply with the law and block the roads, you will not be paid. If you are forced to participate, you can anonymously denounce to the 134.”

While this was on the stations, police were entering buses on the entrances for the capital, random buses, checking for people who could have some flag, bombo or any distinct feature that could show that was going to go to today’s protest rally.

We are living a fascist government. There is no nuance, is concrete, is not even a month and they are showing the true face. A face that was there, for anyone that could see it. Is heartbreaking that so many didn’t see it, and so many are actual fascists that wanted it.

REBLOG THIS. ALL MY NON ARGENTINE MOOTS, FRIENDS AND PEOPLE WHO JUST HAPPENED TO FIND THIS POST. SPEAK UP.


And for any argentines here. We all know what this kind of anouncement reminds us of don’t we? Hmu if you do.

foetidofferings:

sluttynurse:

guy who watches looney tunes and gets scared and goes “what the fuck that’s so messed up”

moringmark:

vaporize-employers:

reblog if you unironically love art that makes you feel weird, confuses the mind, wises to destroy the canon, mocks the concept of values, spits on beauty and celebrates ugliness

therottenkingsreckoning:

one-time-i-dreamt:

Truth emerging from the dirt to shame mankind

sourcreammachine:

hentairobot:

dalmek:

cannibalcaprine-deactivated2024:

yamada-ryo:

Thank you, wikipedia

i need people to know that the anime girl is a proposed Wikipedia mascot named Wikipe-Tan

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thank you beast….

W

lukadjo:

lukadjo:

Why disable the reblogs??

demenshah:

steampunk-llama:

i-am-corbin-dallas:

esterexpositio:

SHREK 2 (2004)

I’m only just realizing thst the “Catnip” is likely planted. Look st the movement of the cops hand in the second gif. Looks more like he’s passing it from hand to hand

In the second gifset you can even see the bag underneath the armour so yeah its v much planted

red-revival:

Funny that transphobes talk abt trans men like “dont be surprised when the testosterone doesn’t turn you to an anime twink” meanwhile half the trans guys I know are in an active race to become the hairiest man in the world gripping our T bottles like “please I need to be a bear it’s important”

theoneofwhomisblue:

shit-stirrer:

theoneofwhomisblue:

tinywafflerat:

theoneofwhomisblue:

miketherobotlover:

darkarfs:

It’s INCORRECT SKELETON SEASON, folks!!

I hate incorrect skeletons. I have no idea why. It’s just ughh so frustrating.

Well what are they supposed to do? Just put a shell?

why do you even need snails for Halloween?? Why snails? Why skeleton snails??

Because it’s festive

Was she not perfect with flesh on? 🙄

Are you saying she’s imperfect just because she’s dead now?

paper-mario-wiki:

not to be whiny, but the phrase “beauty is pain” is really not an exaggeration. if you’re one of the 99.9% of people who dont have a perfectly and flatteringly symmetrical face with clear skin and shiny volumous hair but not TOO MUCH body hair (or none at all depending on who you ask) and a thin body and nice proportions and shoulders that has a perfect ratio with your hips and straight white teeth and not too many scars, you have to bend over backwards and yes, even put yourself through costly, tedious, and painful processes to Be Pretty™ consistently and convincingly.

status: currently laying in bed with a warm washcloth over my face after taking 3 passes with my single blade razor cuz its the closest shave i can get on my particularly coarse, dark facial hair that shows up very clearly if my shave isnt’t perfect, and even then leaves a shadow under my skin which needs makeup to be concealed.

Testing tumblr’s new and terrible“hide note” feature

desktopatomicclocks:

lukadjo:

trips-reciclados:

bogleech:

Reblog or reply to this post asking me to “hide” it, and I’ll see if it works. According to staff, it should make that note “hidden” for everybody on tumblr.

SOME of the notes hidden so far (there’s a constant stream so I can’t keep up for long!)

Replies are simply “deleted.”

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AND WORKS ON REBLOGS where it is called “HIDE NOTE”:

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Now that I’ve “hidden” these, you can only see them on their own blogs here, here, here  here, and here. Even these five users won’t see their own post when they open the notes.

Yikes?

This might be good for people getting harassment on their own posts, but the potential for malicious disinformation is pretty frightening. Remember when suggestions to mix deadly chemicals went viral? Remember how you could just open up the notes on them and see all the “DON’T DO THIS YOU WILL LITERALLY DIE” responses?

Yeah, now the OP of such a post can hide every one of those from anyone who runs across it on their dash, and keep hiding new ones if they’ve really got that much malice.

….This means that us users now have to depend more on the staff alone (oh GOD) to step in and remove harmful hoax or prank posts.

THERE ALSO DOES NOT YET APPEAR TO BE ANY UNDO OR RESTORE FUNCTION

Final update:

One or two notes re-appeared on their own, likely a glitch, and some people are saying they don’t have this functionality on their blogs yet.

I’m all deleted-out now, sorry!

Wow, this is some bullshit. 

hide this!

my good sir this was 2016

what, how was I so foolish to not see that.

lukadjo:

Linkin park rule

lukadjo:

Reblog if your mutuals have been here.

inhumanliquid:

If this gets 100k notes I’ll do one self-care.

rattledazzlebones:

fictiontbh-deactivated20240726:

They give the same vibe

lukadjo:

Had to steal, since reblogs were off.

ballwizard:

guy who wishes he was born a bird: man… I’m really craving some seeds,berries, or maybe small bugs right now…

his girlfriend who really wants to perform unethical science experiments: awe :-( i can arrange that!!

bacteria slowly crawling on a nearby blade of grass: wheee haha

inkskinned:

they keep the silverware in the same place. you forget about it a little bit when you move out, but during the holidays, it comes back. the way you smooth over your life for them, a gentle reckoning.

for a while, you tried to find yourself by being wild. throwing your body at the emergency exit. finding comfort in the sharpness of a held breath. you used to write wake up on the inside of your wrist. you couldn’t calculate the weight of your own sorrow, only that nobody was looking at the anchor of it. you tried maladaptive coping mechanisms like catnip. got caught half-in half-out of them. felt, weirdly, like you should be embarrassed of all of it.

but it does get better. mostly it’s just that you become a priority to yourself. it turns out that lending yourself the ragged edge is just cutting open more marrow. for a while, it felt good to see a physical representation of inward agony. but who was that punishing? you learned, slowly (so slowly it was almost invisible sometimes) that you could put love into the wound instead. that the floor was comfortable because it was certain - but it was cold, and unwanting. instead there is a warm bed. you learn to treat yourself like a kid again. gentle-parent yourself into the shower and over breakfast and into laughing without effort. you do wake up.

but then you come home again, and it is like everything is a strange kaleidoscope of childhood moments. here is how you inherited your mother’s anxiety. there is the same music playing, and you can’t sit down without worrying you forgot to do something. your mother’s clipped words and hovering hands - are you sure? are you sure? birdlike, you find yourself seeing unwell and still end up repeating.

here is your father’s anger. you are 16 again. there was a moment where you remember thinking - holy shit. i am so much more emotionally mature than you. how you have to talk him down from minor inconveniences, how you parent him like an errant and spoiled toddler who can’t be told no, and i mean it. you feel the warp of you. why you can’t be in the same room as people having a completely normal conflict. why your skin crawls if there’s ever a hint of a fight. why you live with your hands up, placating. and god forbid you get angry. you feel that little spoiled kid rage against the iron will of you. not you, not your hands. you would rather cut your own tongue out of your head, no matter how valid her argument is.

and you’re so fucking far from where you were as a kid. you’ve done so much healing. and there’s this little sad part of you that can see the shadow of your past, and your hands wrapped into each other so tightly you made your knuckles white. and how much your parents are just people, and haven’t changed much, and still keep the spoons in the drawer to the right.

there is a long dark tunnel here, and it has a name, but you haven’t learned how to process that kind of speech yet. close the cabinet. make a note to go get more oat milk. close your eyes.

this place was never home, was it.

pegsmothman:

donuts-multifandom-hellhole:

Sometimes I love right wing YouTubers because who else can make absolute masterpiece thumbnails such as this

oseberg-shipper:

Tumblr ads always make me say either “ah yes that is a very funny joke” or “where is the punchline, that is not even funny” but they never make me say “ah, an ad for a product”, never mind “ah, an ad for a product I want, let me go buy that”.

Instantly collapses…

ocean-not-found:

The correct™️

Is crismus

Merry crisis

Merry chrysler

Happy crismun

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tduffyworld:

Entering 2024

fagcrisis:

dashboard in the morning simulator

mutual 1: i need to quit my job

mutual 2: i need to quit my job

mutual 3: i need to quit my job

mutual 4: i need to quit my job

mutual 5: i need to quit my job

mutual 6: i need to quit my job

mutual 7: i need to quit my job

mutual 8: i need to quit my job

buge:

ase-trollplays:

You’re given two job offers. You can only accept one, and you can’t get a second job or a have side hustle.

The first offer is your dream job, your passion project doing what you love, the career you’ve always wanted more than anything else, the job you would sell your soul to be able to have. However, you will never make enough to support yourself, and you’ll be completely reliant on government assistance.

The second offer is to sit in an empty room naked Monday through Friday, eight hours a day. The only details you’re given are that you are allowed to bring entertainment, and you get a break for lunch. The job pays one million dollars (or whatever the equivalent would be where you live) per month.

Which job offer are you taking?

The first offer

The second offer

I’ll pass on both, actually

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bitesdigitalcircus:

fishy-sandwich:

CAINE NATION!!!!!!!

usmcdom:

brutereason:

I find it fascinating that people who choose not to have children are generally assumed to feel really strongly about not having children (or even to feel really strongly against children, anyone’s children, in general). I am probably not going to have children, not because I REALLY REALLY HATE the idea of having children, but because I don’t really really love it. Out of all the major decisions I will make in my life, this one is the only irreversible one. I can sell a house, quit a job, divorce a spouse, whatever. I cannot unhave a child. I cannot opt out of being a parent once I become a parent. I can’t even take a step back for the sake of self-care or whatever, or else my child will suffer.

So for me, having children is fuck yes or not at all. The default will be to remain childfree. Having children should be an opt-in decision, not an opt-out one. Until/unless I develop really strong feelings about wanting to have children, I won’t have them, even if that means I never end up having them at all.

Sometimes you just come across something that puts into words what you have yet been unable to.

fickes:

[ID: a 4-panel comic in black ink colored digitally with pink accents. Panel 1: Panel depicts a beefy, tall man hugging a much smaller person. A heart appears from between them. Text: "I have that toxic man desire to be bigger than my partner"/ID]ALT
[ID: Panel 2 depicts a tiny, short, and scrawny person standing awkwardly in empty space. Text: "I also am statistically shrimpy" He is labeled: "scientifically proven to be a small dude"/ID]ALT
[ID: Panel 3 depicts the same person up closer, and he's now wearing platform boots that boost him up tall enough that his head is cut off by the panel boundaries. Text: "I (mostly) can't make myself taller" The boots are labeled "big stompers"/ID]ALT
[ID: Panel 4 depicts the same short man, but he's now beefy, and flexing. He wears sunglasses and sparkles. Text: "So naturally, the direction in which I must grow is/horizontal" He's labeled "squishy + sexy"/ID]ALT

it’s either this or work through my insecurities and accept my body as is but that sounds like a lot more work

sugarflow:

hop on lethal company 2 babygirl

lespoopypodle:

vaikeuksia:

bonk-is-looking-away:

We reclaiming tonight bois

OP (mangolence) actually redid this himself! Here’s his comic and his description:

“I’ve been wanting to make this post for quite some time. Working through internalized transphobia is hard, but it’s worth it. In my country, being transsexual is classified as a mental illness. If you are trans, you are treated as sick by the court system and by the healthcare system. The idea that transmedicalism helps trans people is false, and unconventional trans and nonbinary people aren’t why transphobia exists, ignorance and bigotry is why transphobia exists.

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If you want to learn more about this topic, I highly recommend Brennen Beckwith’s three part video series, starring with “Breaking My Silence On Kalvin Garrah | Part 1” , and Contrapoints video "transtrenders”. Big thank you to @krougrin for encouraging me to make this post!

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#transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #transmasculine #nonbinary #transmed #transmedicalist"

This is important

But also gods I️ haven’t heard the word tucute in literal years

creative-anchorage:

waitingforthesunrise:

Just realized that the reason I love making friends on tumblr is because it’s exactly how you make friends on the playground as a six year old. No, I don’t know their name but they love mermaids too and built this awesome sand castle. No, I don’t know their age but their imaginary cheetah is friends with mine. You like this show? You like this character?? You can sing the theme song really loud??? Here is a flower crown. Here is a juice box. You can share my time and I might never see you again but part of you stays in my soul forever. In my mind we’re still on the swing set and the sky is blue and nothing will ever be wrong again.

inkskinned:

inkskinned:

i know we’re both just messing around pretending to be whole but look at me. if the train was coming would you move. if the ground was falling from under your feet would you even notice or would it just be another tuesday for you. if somebody stabbed you could it hurt worse than you already do. what i’m saying is that i love you but i think we both drive over the speed limit when it’s raining. what i’m saying is that i want to hold your hand and i understand about how you sometimes have to sit down in the shower. what i’m saying is that i’m here for you and if the train comes please move.

i wrote this 7 years ago, somehow. every day someone else finds it and whispers to me - oh, i understand this. something always turns in the wash of my stomach: i am so, so glad you feel seen. i wish you had no idea what this post was about.

i wrote this while working in a program for new writers. on wednesdays, two of the teachers would be contractually obligated to read our writing aloud to the group of 300+ teens. i had never read my work in public before. i had something like 6k poems and was panicking about it. none of them are good enough. sometimes the train is howling. it is hard, actually, sometimes, even as an adult.

and then i thought - what is one thing i wish i could tell all of them. each of these 300 kids. what did i need to hear, at 16?

i wanted to tell them about the day you wake up, and the sun feels warm finally. i wanted to tell them about carving a life out of soapstone, your hands turning bloody. i wanted to tell them that sometimes yes - it actually does feel easy. i wanted to tell them about weddings and cookie dough and long road trips. about albums of new music and old friends laughing and the sound of snow falling.

you will learn the pattern of the train. you will learn to close your eyes when you hear the engine rumbling. you will learn to let yourself have the grey days in their lily-soft numbness. sometimes it will feel like life is wet paint, and god has smeared your canvas across a sewer grate. sometimes it will be so boring it isn’t even pronounceable - the tenacious, soundless blankness. survival isn’t just ugly nights and wild mornings. it is also the steady, unimportant moments. it is just driving with your seatbelt on. it is calling a friend on the way home. it is burying your face into the fur of your dog.

when i had finished reading this poem aloud, the auditorium was silent for a solid minute. someone stood up to take a picture of where it had been projected onto a screen, and then three more people followed the action, and then - like a bad internet story, people remembered they were supposed to be clapping. kids came up to me after it - thank you for writing that. i think i hear a train coming.

i would write this differently now, i think, but it has been 7 years. i still live by the tracks. i also haven’t picked up a blade in over 10 years. the scars are still there, but these days i only pick up scissors to cut my hair. i know why you can’t tell your mom about it. i know how the numbness slips over everything, a restless horrible cotton. i know how when you dropped the dish, you weren’t crying about the broken glass. i know about feeling like all the roads have closed their exits, that you aren’t supposed to still-be-here - and yet.

i am still here, and still yours, and i haven’t forgotten. what i’m saying is if any hope is calling to you - i know it’s hard, but you have to listen. i’m saying keep driving, but slow down the car. sit down in the shower, i’m not judging you. we can stay in the dark with the good hot water and do nothing but stare. notice the stab wound. make it through another tuesday.

i know what it is like to miss yourself. do what you need to. come home to me. i am writing to you, my past self, from the future. i’ll be waiting for you.

and when the train is coming - please move.

bitesdigitalcircus:

fishy-sandwich:

CAINE NATION!!!!!!!

cabybapa:

poetrylesbian:

does anyone know if we have joy and whimsy tomorrow

always