My current plan to recover from my mental and emotional existence is to just go so deep into being insane that I’ll come out sane on the other side. Being a chronic people pleaser plagued with impostor syndrome stretched me too thin, and that leash simply snapped and I am now a completely untethered, unapologetic vermin.
Fuck having impostor syndrome, if I’m not entitled to be here they should’ve barred the doors better. If I’m doing everything wrong because of imaginary rules that nobody told me about, that’s their problem, you should have made your confusing system more idiot-proof.
I’m not here to please everyone and do everything right. I’m here to make bad art, chew on furniture, make people laugh, cook awful food and look at pretty landscapes, and piss off the people who don’t want me to exist. If I have an unseen infinite debt somewhere that I can never pay back, I’m going to keep running that tab until I die. I’m alive purely because the universe is shit at pest control.
i never thought “i’m alive purely bc the universe is shit at pest control” would be my motivation of the day but damn this dude went hard
actually no wait i’m still processing the ending and . the emperor REALLY tried to guilt-trip us into letting him snack on orpheus by saying “i have been your constant salvation…….. your knight in shining armor……….” like DUDE. YEAH NO KIDDING. you LITERALLY showed up as a fake paladin after plumbing my sorcerer’s deepest desires and identifying she had a thing for paladins. apparently. he’s so funny. “sorry about lying to you but consider: i’ve been lying to you”. “how DARE YOU call me out on my lies. did you forget that i have been manipulating your desires since the very beginning? and saved your life? also?”. “ignore the fact i single-handedly forged the evidence and also everything else to prove my point”
wait @asleepinawell YOUR MIND. i need everyone to see this.
it’s always an interesting approach when games take the fact that players aren’t given all the information at once in stories as part of the narrative process to make it the person who is in a position of power over your character is withholding the information to control you. they made the doling out the story aspect of writing into part of the story that meshed with the themes. which was very clever. and letting you design how your “guardian” looked in character creator was such a good idea since it invited you to start forming an attachment to them before you even met them. very mean. I approve
if you’re not cooperative from the get go the emperor shifts into much colder dialogue early on and as soon as you start pushing back gets mad. he plays a friendly, supportive mentor character right up until you say no which is hmm yeah big red flag. also constantly telling you to trust him while withholding information and saying it’s for your own good and you can’t handle it yet
one of the most blatant instances of this is if you refuse to tell him what you spoke about with raphael in act 3 he will invade your mind to find out. (also interesting how that puts the player doing that to other people (especially companions) in a new perspective because boy does it feel invasive)
Having replayed the early chapters a few times, I’m really impressed by both the language and the voice acting the “guardian” uses. Every single line is delivered with a subtle neutral flatness. You can read it as encouraging, or you can read it as threatening, or critical. Every time the guardian appears to you to tell you how vital you are, they always, always emphasize that it’s the tadpole that makes you important. Not you. Not who you are, or what you want, or what you’re capable of. Your parasite. It is powerful. It is special. It’s the worst possible flavor of Chosen One narrative you could get. You were chosen. To be a host to a monster. It was not your choice. And you have no agency.
The biggest, reddest red flag in my initial playthrough came when you finally meet the Emperor face-to-tentacles at the start of Act 3. And I know this doesn’t necessarily happen in every game, (because it didn’t come up for my spouse) but when the Emperor offered me the worm that would induce partial ceremorphosis, the narrator was telling me how much I always wanted this. And all my options were accepting it, a difficult will save to refuse it, or “drop the tadpole and step on it.” Which made it glaringly obvious that my character was being psionically dominated.
The only time the narrator tells you what your character feels normally is in a Dark Urge game, and those are clearly intrusive thoughts. So. Yeah. I got the message here, loud and clear.
I understand the sentiment, but when you write RIP in a sentence please be careful with your presentation, cause I just saw someone sincerely post “Let her RIP 😔” and I immediately pictured them Beyblading their grandma into the fucking stratosphere.
Actually turning things over in my brain and yeah, I’d say that’s probably my feeling on a lot of these conversations. The wrong thing is getting blamed.
White people do experience racism. The problem is when people hear that they think “people of color have power over white people” and not “under white supremacy, there are white people who are regarded as Not White Enough”.
Men are oppressed. The problem is that people tend to think the ending of that sentence is “by women” and not “under the patriarchy, men are forced into a very specific and often harmful role and are heavily punished for any deviance from that role”.
And the well has been poisoned by bad actors, so it’s hard to get any amount of conversation about this going without either attracting said bad actors to totally derail the whole thing or without having kneejerk suspicion from the getgo due to said bad actors’ previous actions.
Which is also why literally any time anyone says “this is a thing that sucks” the reaction usually is “booooo you think women oppress men” or “boooooo you think reverse racism is real” even when the post literally says otherwise.
I say “trans men who are not yet/never able/don’t want to pass as men are often treated like women and subjected to misogyny” and “trans men who fit a very specific cishet passing picture often have access to male privilege in the way that others may not” in the same post and I’m told “booooooooo you think trans women oppress trans men” when I not only didn’t mention trans women at all but also am talking about the way cishet society treats trans men and how our relationship to misogyny and male privilege is incredibly complicated and often interwoven throughout the various phases of our individual journeys.
I say “I had a boyfriend who was a white guy with monolid eyes and he confided in me about how badly people treat him when they think he’s Asian” and I get “booooo you think reverse racism is real” when I’m talking about how white racists beat him up when he was walking down the street.
I say “I’ve seen white feminists advocate for genocide by saying we should kill all the men in various war-torn countries like Afghanistan and Syria” and “white people do not understand the black experience and to understand the black experience you need to also study black feminism” and I get “booooo you think women oppress men” when I’m talking about how even white liberals and leftists are often still racist.
And yeah I know piss on the poor website and all that but like. Come on folks, it’s not that hard to read.
In real life, people sometimes mistake me for being Not White (usually I get mistaken for being Korean or Chinese, sometimes hispanic or latino if I’m presenting more masculine. Something about my eye shape, accent, or hair is the answer I usually get when I ask about it).
This happened more often when I was a teenager, especially if I took off my glasses (this is when people would mention the shape and size of my eyes), or when I was practicing for my Japanese classes. When I was taking testosterone, my facial hair (and the curly dark hair I already had) made me look hispanic or latino to some people, to the point where people who were ACTUALLY hispanic or latino would start speaking to me in their native language, under the assumption that I was from the same culture as them. It has been a while since either thing has happened, but when it was more frequent, I also faced bigotry based on these false perceptions.
When Covid first hit, people would like. Throw shit at me at my job, or call me sinophobic slurs, or threaten me, or spit on me, etc. I hesitate to talk about it a lot because people assume I’m trying to say “I experience racism for being white” when really it’s “I do not face racism for being white, but I have, on occasion, faced racism at the hands of people who didn’t realize I’m white.” When people mistook me for hispanic/latino more frequently, around when Trump was gaining support, I was CONSTANTLY having maga hat wearing assholes taunting me, people telling me to leave the country, threatened with violence, etc. And correcting them not only does nothing to dispel the aggressors’ bigoted viewpoints, it also doesn’t stop the violence that is happening to the individual in question in that moment.
White people will NOT experience racism or oppression for being white. I don’t think anyone would say that in good faith. However, we have to take the perspectives of those who intentionally harm others into account when discussing lived experiences. The experiences that we as humans have do not always line up with how people believe things would or should happen. In fact, they rarely ever do.
I’m wondering if there’s a word for this? For bigotry that impacts a group it was not intended to (white people being mistaken for BIPOC, allocishet people being mistaken for queer, physically abled people being mistaken for being physically disabled, neurotyoicals being mistaken for neurodivergent, etc., and recieving harm based on those false peeceptions)
There’s not a specific word for this (to my knowledge) in part because in many countries these all still fit the legal definition of “hate crime” and “discriminiation” under whatever demographic it’s “technically” intended for.
So for instance the guy who screamed in my face that “we’re in American and in America we speak English and not fucking Mexican” because I said an Americanized French word (pate) regarding the style of dog food he was asking for when I worked retail, is operating under anti-Mexican and anti-latino bigotry. The woman who threw her purchase at my head while calling me a “job stealing Mexican bitch” also is the same.
It doesn’t matter that I’m not Mexican. That I wasn’t speaking Spanish. And that I’m neither a woman nor a female dog nor did I steal anyone’s shitty minimum wage cashier job. These people hate Mexicans. To them, I was Mexican-looking enough for me to receive their hatred. No amount of me correcting them would have improved the situation- the woman in question was black. The man was white.
These people are anti-Mexican and xenophobic. Under current hate crime and discrimination law if I had pursued either of these things in court, that is what it would be sorted under. Hate crime and discrimination law is very clear that it is the thought process of the bigot, not the identity of the target, that determines whether it counts. If the bigot swings at Mexicans and hits a black guy, it still counts as an anti-Mexican hate crime. The problem is that the bigot hates Mexicans. And because I’ve been caught in the crosshairs, even if I don’t care about other people’s suffering (which I do, don’t get it twisted), it behooves me to care about putting an end to these xenophobic actions because I’m also getting hurt by them.
I might not be the intended target, but a bullet in the chest will kill you even if the killer was aiming for the guy to your left and hit you instead.
I saw a short guy with the largest thighs i’ve ever seen on a man and i audibly said jesus fuck without realizing it and he turned around but didn’t see me and my dick almost flew right off
The coworker next to me was like “what is it with gay men and thighs? i don’t get it” and like you absolutely do not understand janice mind your own fucking business im eating with my eyes
It is funny. Recently I had a transphobe argue to me, that “well, it is all made up! Animals will still not know that you identify as a man”. Which to me is so funny, because while there has never been extensive research done on this topic, there is a lot of anecdotal evidence showing the exact opposite.
As someone who has done a lot of work with animals, I can tell you, that those animals that for one reason or another like one gender more or less than another often show the same loving or hostile behavior towards people completely depending on the gender the people actually identifies as.
“Sure,” some people might say, “because if you take hormons you gonna smell like the gender to an animal.” But that is the funny part. Animals often act according to that with trans adults who are still in egg mode. Who have not come out yet. And nobody knows why and how they can tell.
But some of the harsher animals with a “gender preference in humans” are like the best trans indicators. You have not admitted to yourself you are a guy? Yeah, this cat is gonna hate you anyways. Because this cat hates men.
Sincerely the guy who got attacked by this one fucking bunny, who didn’t like dudes, several times
ik it’s important for boycott lists to be focused and limited in scale in order to make results more visible and avoid overwhelming consumers, but personally? i am a born hater and i’m always ready for another company to hate on. i don’t need a strategic objective i’ll do it just for the love of the game
Spotted on a NYPD cop during a #FreePalestine march in NYC.
Why would you praise a cop for advocating “by any means necessary”? Why do you think a NYPD officer would relate to that sediment? This is a violent statement, this isn’t something said by someone who wants peace.
Friend, someone very clearly stuck that sticker on his back like a kick me sign. That’s what we’re laughing at.
if you feel comfortable, list what generation you’re a part of and what writing system you use in the tags
Depends on what I’m doing, if it’s an “official written assignment” (a special type of test where I come from) it’s cursive and when not, then I sometimes do but generally don’t bother to.
Oh 𝔽𝕌ℂ𝕂! You didn’t tell me you had a beast in your home. You’ve got a little goggyee. Eh- BOGGY. A poopy dog. A buppy- a little 𝐹𝑈𝐶𝐾𝐼𝑁𝐺 ƊOƐGGУ. I’ve never seen a reell dog before! We only have Lego® Dogs on Lego® Island. 𝒪𝒽! Oh FUCK! Oh fuck nooo! This red bastard’s got teeth! Sharp teethh. He’s going to tear me into little Lego® pieces. I’ve never been so scared in my life! WHAT THE FUCK this is like a jumpscare from Five Fuckers at Uncle Festers. GET ME THE 𝔽𝕌ℂ𝕂 OUT OF HERE!
I’m so sorry but I can’t stop obsessing over the bizarre relationship I have with my one shitty coworker and it’s killing me. I feel like smeagol
“You’re making yourself out to be a helpless victim like I’M the bad guy but really we both know that you’re predicting my reactions and needling me on purpose. You know exactly what to say and do to provoke me and everyone thinks you’re sooooo innocent”
Ma'am I’m clinically depressed. Would you like a fruit roll up
I can’t stand forced romance in media. You’re telling me this man and woman who’ve barely spoken to each other, have not flirted at all and have barely been together for three scenes are in love??? Like am I just too aroace to see it?? I always feel so surprised
Aliens have captured you, and placed you in one of their nature preserves. However, they have sorely miscalculated on two issues: The amount of calories needed to keep a persistence predator sated, and the lethality/brutality of a hangry human.
first alien scientist in hover car: i don’t understand, all these creatures thrived together in the original environment, why is it eating them to extinction here?
second alien scientist: maybe we should add more crayfish? it ate the whole population in one sitting, that was kind of a surprise.
me, without looking up from scraping a caribou hide: i can hear you, assholes.
alien scientists: (staring)
me: yeah, i learned your language. you keep sitting there talking about me like i can’t hear you, that’s gonna happen.
first scientist: fascinating. we knew you were arguably sentient, but… (making notes)
second scientist: why are you eating everything? your food requirement in your home environment was less than half this.
me: i didn’t have to catch it myself, you idiots! you yoinked me out of the middle of a camping trip! i bought all that food at a store! i bought my CLOTHES at a store. i bought my BEDDING at a store. I DID NOT HAVE TO KILL MY OWN TENT.
me, finally looking up, shaking a flint knife at them: what the hell kind of scientists could go to earth and not notice the dominant species lives in cities? did you just swoop by in a hurry and grab everything out of the park without looking?
scientists: (silence)
me: … oh my god.
scientists: we’re grad students.
I need this as a film.
The aliens submit their research on the human species, and their captive human (having learned to read their language because students cannot keep paperwork in order) Submits their own counter-critique of their study from having lived it.
The human subject is also granted a degree. It is not honorary.
Blonde person with yellow popsicle: can somebody tell me how the fuck you make friends after high school?
Brunette person with glasses: Show up somewhere regularly. The reason you make friends in high school is because you see the same people everyday. The reason you make friends at work is because you see the same people everyday. If you want to make friends as an adult, go to the same cafe every week, or go to a calligraphy class. If you don’t want to leave the house you can just go to the same twitch stream everyday that’s what I do, and I’ve made friends there. If you are a familiar face in a place where people share your interests, you’ll make friends.
This is 100% correct. Please follow this advice. Seek out something you find interesting and consistently interact with people who do as well.
is it a good idea to microwave this. slo mo destruction vids. will it blend. red hot nickel ball. 1000 degree hot knife. hydraulic press. industrial shredder. what’s next for us in society
i know the internet is super english centered but i wish it was more common to mention the language whenever theres talk about a voice actor too, just say “the english voice actor of xyz”? that cant be too hard to do right??
i wish there was more appreciation for non-english voice actors!! in english spaces as well as in general! i know the names of many of the english cast for zelda even though i dont like any of them and have never set my game to it but know them simply bc they are the only ones getting any mention and they are always just called “the voice of” making it seem like that is THE one and only voice
im aware that its in part bc i am mostly in english speaking online spaces and the internet IS a very english centered thing but i dont think its wrong to wish for more recognition of other actors for languages other than english or to simply want them to mention to what language they are the actor of
like i dont mean that you gotta talk about every single different voice actor but i think just mentioning it like that more directly implies that there ARE others at all, especially since alot of games dont even do other voices at all and just make english the only voice over even if the game was developed by non-english people, i just find it sad :(
That’s really interesting, usually when someone has a specific target, they don’t plan a minimum timeline for how long they will fight them, they usually aim to finish the job and then be done. It’s almost like they’re just trying to do the most damage to the Palestinian people as possible for as long as they can get away with it and Hamas has fuckall to do with it
And ðat’s why I þink it would be best for us to move to anoðer country.
These houses are also made of mud with thatched roofs. Locally sourced, abundant materials paired with designs that have stood the test of time MAKE SENSE.
There is a section of humanity who want this strange kind of uniformity across the world. Houses must be made of brieze blocks and have electric air con and gas heating. Same shops everywhere. Cultural homogeneity.
Reject it. This world is diverse and beautiful and humans have found so many diverse and beautiful solutions to our problems! Let’s treasure them.
These houses are also made of mud with thatched roofs. Locally sourced, abundant materials paired with designs that have stood the test of time MAKE SENSE.
There is a section of humanity who want this strange kind of uniformity across the world. Houses must be made of brieze blocks and have electric air con and gas heating. Same shops everywhere. Cultural homogeneity.
Reject it. This world is diverse and beautiful and humans have found so many diverse and beautiful solutions to our problems! Let’s treasure them.
writing a garbage essay feels like you’re the cow who gave birth to the two headed calf. in the morning, my professor will wrap him in newspaper and dissect him on a cold operating table. but here he is alive, under the pale glow of my computer screen. he is beautiful. there are twice as many logical fallacies as usual.
